My changing world...

It's been quite some times since I got back from Vientiane, and there are days that I still miss it. A while back I got to talk to Soukanh and the kiddos for a bit, it made my life so much brighter!!

The last few months, at least since the beginning of the year I have had this urge to get out on my own.. to live on my own and do things the way that I see fit. Well, since I haven't honestly done this in the past it's been a VERY difficult change.
Will, who was my boyfriend and also the man I lived with, was the sacrifice I had to make to see where my life could and should go.
While he doesn't understand, and there are times when I'm not sure I do either, I do believe this is for the best. I do think that I need to be on my own, doing my own thing and having adventures that are mine to cherish.

So, this is week one of my new apartment. I do have a roommate, he is a co-worker of mine but we aren't living together in the same way that Will and I were.
It's been a very strange and slightly difficult week, I feel like a stranger in a strange place. The apartment feels temporary, and I suppose in a way it is.
I'm used to having a place that I called "home", and now it's just another place to live. It's something that I am learning to deal with, which is good! I am hoping to gain lots of experiences out of this and learn more about myself.

I'm not sure where my road is going to go.
I'm looking for a new job, one that better supports the fact that I am on my own, and I'm enrolled in school for the fall.
I'm ready to get my life started. I'm ready to know that I am able to do anything and face anything that comes my way.
I'm going to start working on my music again, it's been neglected for quite some time now.

I think I'll miss the life that I had been living, right now I know I do. There are things that I suppose we take for granted until the aren't there anymore. I do realize that I took those things away from myself... and to me there was good reason. So now it's time to live with the choices that I've made and keep on trucking.

I am eager to see how things, or IF things change for me.